One Step

I have concluded that I am a sap. Really. I'm sitting on my couch crying over a TV show. which TV show? Extreme Makeover-home edition. See, sappy. I don't watch TV often so it's been a few years probably since I've watched and episode but I LOVE it. I watch these people who build houses and the quote "A man who does what he loves will never work a day in his life" comes to mind. These people are doing what they love and not only doing what they love. They are using their skills and what they love to change lives. To lift people who are usually at the lowest points in their lives. That's what I want to do. Not build houses, I don't have those skills. But I don't see myself changing lives in an office building crunching numbers. I have decided not to get my MBA at this time...some of my friends think I'm crazy but I want to do what I love and I want to help people while I do it. How am I going to do that? well...I'm haven't completely figured that out yet.
Sometimes I come home and everyone is asleep. the lights are all out and I have to walk in the dark to my room. All the way hoping no one left anything on the floor in my path. Sometimes they do, I stub my toe and it hurts like crazy. But I adjust my path and eventually make it to my room and into the light. That's what this feels like to me. I'm just walking forward, one step at a time. hoping I don't stub my toes. But eventually I will figure out what to do with the rest of my life. Just one step at a time.